I remember now...

Sweet Lori and Jenny Beth.

Reminded me that there are lots and lots of things that make me happy, and that I need to remember them.

Two weeks ago I was in St George for Thanksgiving and my sister Shari and I were walking down an aisle at Superrr Targay....I peeked down the baby aisle and felt an ache in my wee heart. And I said to Shari, "Aw, I want a baby". And it got me thinking of how much I have in my life right now.

How blessed I have been.

How much I've been able to do.

How full my life is.

How much I need to not worry about the future and to just press on and be happy with ME.

Where I'M at.

What I'M doing.

And just feel content. And that if it doesn't happen in the next year for me, or for the rest of my life...I'm content, and happy, with ME.

What makes me happy?

I've been quite discouraged lately, about God's timing for my future, and when that will all happen for me. I've been trying to be patient, and just have struggled.

My brother gave me a blessing last week, and in it, I was told that I needed to just be patient. To focus on me right now, and to just find what makes me happy. After finishing such a grueling master's program at BYU, I realized that I completely lost myself.

Not sure what makes me happy anymore.

After really pondering that thought in my blessing, I've decided that that must be my quest this 33rd year of mine.

What brings a smile to Karen and her heart?

Out there somewhere...

It's a roller coaster....and always has been for me. So, this guy I met was great. Such a good person...so many great qualities. We went out every single night for a week straight. And then...he stopped calling for over a week.

This is the story of my life.

Well, when he finally did call...he just had a lot of things to say that made me think..."I so deserve more than this".

So...on to greater things...I know he's out there somewhere. Where, I say?

Goodness :)

I met someone.

I just have to say that he is good...lots and lots and lots of things about him.

I want to know more...I don't think I know anyone like him.

And oh, I hope I see and get to know more of him! :)

Singles Websites

So I have been off of the whole dating scene on the singles websites for quite some time now.

I just hate them...

There is so much false hope there-and so much devastation to your self esteem-atleast that is how my experience with them has been. It's like you read someone's profile and they seem great and then you meet them in person, and they're nothing like they said they were. Or, you think a person sounds really cool and makes a good match with you, and so you get brave and send them a quick email on the site...and then they write back a quick one-liner and don't ask you any questions at all, so you feel like they looked at your profile and weren't interested, and they are just emailing you back to be nice. Or, they don't email back at all-and your self esteem is shot.

I recently got back on one of the sites and posted some new pics, and all of a sudden people are writing me...and I got the false hope again...and then the slams to my self esteem.

Dating sucks, and I'm sick of it. I'm so ready to just throw in the towel.

Waiting

Have you ever had one of those experiences that you just can't explain? Or understand? Or completely believe, even though you know deep down that it's true?

Today I did.

I just had the strongest feeling that there are little people upstairs waiting to come down. I've felt this before, but today it was stronger than ever and it made me feel like they are 'sick and tired' of waiting.

SO, what am I not doing to not get them here....I've got to evaluate this....

Best video, evah!

Ok, so I grinned from ear to ear watching this. Someday, someday, I will have as much excitement and feel this happy when I finally find someone to share my life with. Here's hoping it's coming for me sooner than later...Enjoy.