It's ok...someday.

My oldest nephew Derek got married 2 years ago this December.

And now, my second oldest nephew gets married this December.

I only wish it was me getting married this December.

But it's ok...someday.

I remember just how I felt and where I was 2 years ago-sitting at my nephew Derek's wedding to Dawn. I remember feeling really really happy for him, and yet sad-hearted at the same time. It was sort of a slap in the face to see a nephew get married before me, his aunt. But I was still really happy for him, and I still am.

And now, I'm going to be a great Aunt in March-they are having a little girl.

Kind of another slap, but once again, very VERY happy for them.

On December 17, 2008-in two weeks or so, Mckay, my second nephew-Derek's younger brother, is getting married to Jen. I'm really, REALLY excited for them as well, and just join them in their excitement and look forward to their day together. I'm of course, wishing it was me also, getting married that day.

It's ok...someday.

I think it's getting a little less sad for me when I see family and friends get married, because I am starting, I think to believe in the...someday...thing. I haven't for so long...and ever since I moved to this new place here in Pleasant Grove, I feel like I am starting more and more to believe in it.

And I'm so grateful for that.