To get me to you

I've been to two weddings in two weeks.

Crazy.

Just two years ago tomorrow I attended my nephew Derek's wedding and I remember I was really really depressed afterwards. Ecstatic for he and Dawn, yet down because I felt the time was never going to come for me. How could a nephew of mine get married before his Aunt Karen?

I don't want to come off as sounding hopeless...I just have had some thoughts tonight, and thought it would be good to record them.

After leaving my friend Kristen's reception tonight, I was totally downhearted. Just feeling tired of attending everyone else's wedding day--wishing it was my own--wondering WHEN is this going to happen for me. And it was like within an instant all I could think of was WHAT a day it is going to be when it DOES happen for me!

My mind started spinning and spinning...and before I knew it, I was happy again.

On my wedding day, I will not be the only one that is celebrating...there are so many people in my life that have been an extreme blessing to me--that have carried me through the years, helped me, encouraged me, led me, loved me...and I want every single one of them there--with me!!!! How good it will feel to look at all the faces in the temple that day and know that they got me there.

If you listen to the words on the song on my playlist "To get me to you", I think this is exactly how I will feel....

"I don't regret the rain, or the nights I felt the pain, or the tears I had to cry--some of those times along the way. Every road I had to take...every time my heart would break. It was just something that I had to get through...To get me to you"

I'm glad I had this experience tonight...hard things, I believe, will one day turn into good things for me.