Thoughts, snipets of emotions, struggles, and my joy in the journey of being single, yet hoping for my dream to come true of a little family of my own someday...
Sunday, February 1, 2009
A new vision
I have this new vision... I've been working really hard on my thesis these last few weeks...and now that I'm seeing the end of the tunnel, I have some pertinent thoughts. I remember, long ago--I was pleading with God to provide a way for me to get accepted into the graduate program at BYU, sell my house, and get the job I wanted in Springville...and He made it all possible for me. Every single thing I desired, He made happen. I've realized I have complained more than anything about this graduate program...and I haven't expressed the thanks I should have for Him blessing me with it. My journey in the program has been grueling, challenging, yet--rewarding. I'm so thankful for all I have learned. For people I've met along the way, and the impact they have had on my life. In my patriarchal blessing it states, "Seek His guidance in your choice of an eternal companion; consider completely the goals of celestial exaltation as well as your plan to fulfill in completeness all that you were sent forth to accomplish. I, therefore, bless you, Karen, to place as your top priority the purpose for which you came to this earth life-to bring choice spirits of your Heavenly Father to this earth". Throughout this graduate program, because of that specific paragraph in my blessing-I have had in the back of my mind-this focus on the future...and that if I were to ever meet someone along the way, I would give the whole program and my thesis up. That never happened. I think I've followed the advice of my blessing...because always, that was my priority. Yesterday I took a break from writing to work out, and I couldn't help but feel like things are changing for me. I'm looking at a few weeks to be done--and I feel like Heavenly Father wanted me to accomplish this--He said that my plan to fulfill all I had in mind to fulfill-I would accomplish...and this graduate program--thinking long ago as I pleaded on my knees...whether it was hard or not...I wanted it. Anyways, I just feel like it's going to be over soon and then, my sure focus of finding that eternal companion will be in the front seat of my life. I'm working on losing this weight I've gained and my stress of my grad program will be lifted and I will be relieved. Perfect time, I think, for God to bless me with this next chapter in my life. I hope. And then I will be back to pleading on my knees again for the deepest desire of my life...finding my eternal companion and bringing choice spirits of God to this earth.
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4 comments:
OK...I like this plan..thesis finished, lose the weight, chosen mate...I think you will feel so good when the burden of this is lifted and your focus can change. I just want you to work as hard at the next stage as you have on this...good things can happen. Love you buddy sleep tight...and no Im not in bed!
My dear friend Cyndie, who is so much like you- accomplished, served in HK so she speaks Chinese (Cantonese), and just an awesome woman- always says:
The Journey is the Reward.
That is the saying on her blog. On my blog it says:
Life is just so DAILY
So you can see that I have a long way to go.
I can't wait to see where this chapter takes you. I know that the Lord will continue to bless you.
Kim
Karen you are so awesome! I love reading your blog it makes me happy.....and I love your plan. I can't wait to take your grad pics in the spring:) I already have some fun ideas!!! get the thesis out of the way...thats a biggie....then move on to the other two goals....You are a major inspiration to me....Love ya:)
I got your message about August! It's fine except I'm due with a baby on August 1st:) so what if we do it the very end of July???? Whatcha think?
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