Lately I have been having a really hard time, spiritually. Just sort of feeling lost in a ward where I don't know people, and don't go--or want to go to activities, etc. I've done the whole transition before of going from a single's ward to a family ward, and felt 100% MORE lost, and so I made the decision to go back into the older mid-single's ward that I was in previously.
For quite some time I have just felt lost there. Completely to the point where I don't want to go to church.
And....I don't want that, I know. I know that I know better than that, my faith is stronger than that, and I would never just stop going completely...it's against my nature.
So today I decided to attend the ward that I would go to if I wasn't going to the single's ward. It's a branch. I walked in and instantly felt a part of it. I counted the people. 60. What?! Before church was over, at least 10 people had come up to me to introduce themselves to me and try to get me to start coming to this branch.
I'm torn. For me mostly...I just need to feel a 'part' of something. And switching to this branch will definitely help me feel like that...but, of course, there aren't any single people attending that ward (maybe 3?). And so it would take me away from a 'single's scene'.
But I feel like spiritually, I need this.
What to do...
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