I wanna love somebody. And be loved.
Today at church I watched this little family...kids playing with each other, hugs and kisses given, and winks from the mom and dad to each other every few minutes. I couldn't get enough of it. And I hoped for that of my own someday.
Even if it means trials come with it...and I know they do...
I sure want me some of that.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Ruts.
I want to feel good about being single and like I said yesterday, "34 and enjoying it all the more"...
I'm sure I will have up and down days, and I don't want to only record the up days.
Someday when I get married and have a little family, I am going to look back on these entries and be so grateful that I recorded my thoughts...the good AND the bad.
Today, was a bad day.
I'm having a rough time focusing on my job at the moment. Each time school starts, I find myself just wishing that I was the mom and that I was doing school shopping for them and taking them to meet their teachers, getting them ready the first day of school, helping with homework, going to their SEP conferences, etc., etc.
I want that in my life.
I'm sure when it does come around, I will be wishing that I didn't have all that responsibility and have to be in charge of so much for them...but, I do want that. It's a righteous desire that I have.
I woke up today and just fought every second going to work. I feel unhappy where I am at, yet I am trying to have a positive attitude about it. I'm trying to make the most out of my situation and being where I'm at. I need to find ways to get out of my "ruts" when I am in them...because I frequently get in them. I spoke with Lori today about my feelings and came to the conclusion that I have a positive outlook on my life and where I'm at right now for like 5 hours, and then I start feeling down again.
What things can I be doing to get myself out of the rut feelings, and feeling positive about it all again?
I'm sure I will have up and down days, and I don't want to only record the up days.
Someday when I get married and have a little family, I am going to look back on these entries and be so grateful that I recorded my thoughts...the good AND the bad.
Today, was a bad day.
I'm having a rough time focusing on my job at the moment. Each time school starts, I find myself just wishing that I was the mom and that I was doing school shopping for them and taking them to meet their teachers, getting them ready the first day of school, helping with homework, going to their SEP conferences, etc., etc.
I want that in my life.
I'm sure when it does come around, I will be wishing that I didn't have all that responsibility and have to be in charge of so much for them...but, I do want that. It's a righteous desire that I have.
I woke up today and just fought every second going to work. I feel unhappy where I am at, yet I am trying to have a positive attitude about it. I'm trying to make the most out of my situation and being where I'm at. I need to find ways to get out of my "ruts" when I am in them...because I frequently get in them. I spoke with Lori today about my feelings and came to the conclusion that I have a positive outlook on my life and where I'm at right now for like 5 hours, and then I start feeling down again.
What things can I be doing to get myself out of the rut feelings, and feeling positive about it all again?
Monday, September 6, 2010
...All the more...
I want to write more in this blog.
Mostly because I have so many things I could and should be sharing here.
I've decided to make a new goal...to really live for the moments right now.
And instead of making my mantra for this upcoming year "34 single no more..."
I want it to be "34 and enjoying it all the more".
I have so much I can accomplish. And things I can learn at this age. Here are just a few that have been on my mind and that I can work on this upcoming year as a single person:
-Learn to be a conscious money saver instead of a spender
-Learn some big things about cooking and try them (i.e. cooking a turkey, etc)
-Serve more anonymously-be aware of people and their needs
Mostly because I have so many things I could and should be sharing here.
I've decided to make a new goal...to really live for the moments right now.
And instead of making my mantra for this upcoming year "34 single no more..."
I want it to be "34 and enjoying it all the more".
I have so much I can accomplish. And things I can learn at this age. Here are just a few that have been on my mind and that I can work on this upcoming year as a single person:
-Learn to be a conscious money saver instead of a spender
-Learn some big things about cooking and try them (i.e. cooking a turkey, etc)
-Serve more anonymously-be aware of people and their needs
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